45 hours

It is hard to believe that in the past almost 6 months we have gone from this:

To this:

From 25 ounces to 8 and a half pounds!

5 months and 5 days ago I was here:

Watching them wisk my daughter off for Heart Surgery.

Today I am holding her closer knowing that in 45 hours I will once again watch my daughter roll thru the doors marked Surgery and I will take a long deep breath as the doors shut behind her knowing I will not breathe again till I am by her side in recovery.

I think I am more scared about this smaller surgery than I was about her heart surgery. Maybe it's because I cannot picture my life without this little wonder. Because since I have been with her all this time I know what I would be missing if she was not here.

I have been so torn about this surgery. I want to do what is best for her and after much deliberation, I think this is it. I can only say I think because I do have some reservations though in the end the benefits far outweigh the negatives.

45 hours.

45 more hours to look at her perfect little body.

45 hours more to kiss her little face.

45 hours more before she is changed forever.

45 hours more to hold her close, snuggle her body and breathe in her scent before handing her over to strangers.

45 hours.

So far yet so close. So for the next 45 hours I am going to love on my daughter, not think of the what ifs, cherish every coo and movement, every smile and even her cry.

45 hours more that I am going to pray to God to keep her safe and pray to him for the peace that I am making the right choice for her.

To past the time....

LET THE COUNTDOWN BEGIN!

SO NOT FAIR!!!!!!!

Movie Trailers - Movies Blog

Don't you just want more??? AACCKKKK! NOw you know I will figuring out what channel is MTV and I will be tuned in for the premere of the trailer for Twilight 2: New Moon. 9 EST Sunday on MTV.

Kickin it Old Skool! LOL

OK since I just gave my big sister my blog address, I though it only fair to post some old pics.. Enjoy!
Pics of My Bio Dad, Older Sister, Mom and Me.

Prayer moves Mountians...

As you might have noticed I added a "Praying for Soli" button to the right side of my blog.

I hope you will take it and use it because as the title says Prayer Moves Mountians.

Before she was born I asked for prayers for her to stay inside till she reached viability.

She stayed in 2 more weeks.

When Soli was born at 25 weeks weighing only 25 ozs, I asked for prayers for her to survive.

She is nearing 6 months old.

At 17 days old I asked for prayers that she make it through heart surgery.

She flew thru with flying colors.

I have asked several times for prayer for our beautiful Angel and now here I am asking once again.

Wednesday June 3 at 7:30 am Soli will be undergoing yet another surgery. She will be getting a G-tube placed. I am asking for prayers again for God to guide the surgeons and once again shine his mercy and grace on our Angel.

I will update on Wed via twitter so you can follow me on there (Link on the right----->)

She will be in the hospital for a few days.

Also please pray that I can handle all these new things that come with having a Micro preemie. We have dealt with feeding issues before but Soli is a whole new game. It is upsetting to me that I cannot fix everything. As her mom I want to make it all better and I can't and that is something I am finding extremely hard to deal with. Please pray I can find the strength and trust in God to help me accept all that has happened, is happening and what is to come. I do not know what great things God has planned for our little Angel but I do know they are great!

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The Big Spill

Corbin had a rough Memorial day....






While outside with his sister he had a stroller accident. My poor baby spent dinner time in the ER. Poor thing was so beat up though today he looks better on his head but his hand looks worse.

I have a state hearing for MacKenzie today so wish me luck. If this goes our way it will be one less stressor on us..