OK I know 2 posts in one day but I was in the shower and I was reviewing my dream from last night.
In my dream I was in a room and I looked up and saw a baby in Soli's spot. (In the NICU your child can be moved spots daily) The baby in the bed was lying on it's tummy looking up at me with huge blue eyes. I looked around for Soli and was upset they had moved her and I did not know where she was. The baby in the bed looked like it was going to fall out of the bed so I walked over to check it and saw the name on the bed. Silva, Solange Lea. It was Soli, no machines, no oxygen just a normal, beautiful, healthy baby girl. Then I woke up. It was a wonderful dream! I have tried to think about what it means. Is it just my desire for her to come off the vent and get healthy? OR was it showing me what was to come? Either way I have held on to that dream all day.
I have been sick and I was not able to go see her today and I am a bit depressed about that but I keep calling to check on her. I hope each time that they will tell me she is doing better but I get the same response, she is stable and is the same. She is up to 2 lbs 13 ozs though.