OK I know 2 posts in one day but I was in the shower and I was reviewing my dream from last night.
In my dream I was in a room and I looked up and saw a baby in Soli's spot. (In the NICU your child can be moved spots daily) The baby in the bed was lying on it's tummy looking up at me with huge blue eyes. I looked around for Soli and was upset they had moved her and I did not know where she was. The baby in the bed looked like it was going to fall out of the bed so I walked over to check it and saw the name on the bed. Silva, Solange Lea. It was Soli, no machines, no oxygen just a normal, beautiful, healthy baby girl. Then I woke up. It was a wonderful dream! I have tried to think about what it means. Is it just my desire for her to come off the vent and get healthy? OR was it showing me what was to come? Either way I have held on to that dream all day.
I have been sick and I was not able to go see her today and I am a bit depressed about that but I keep calling to check on her. I hope each time that they will tell me she is doing better but I get the same response, she is stable and is the same. She is up to 2 lbs 13 ozs though.
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i think its a sign of what is to come!
Dani- with a swear on my God, I can tell you that I started writing a post on my blog about Soli which i couldnt complete then for the lack of time- morning rush to office as I had a meeting planned with my CEO. Here is the draft that is saved in my post---"Soli's fight to life is on, her mom's post on Soli's blog was taken on the Wordless Wednesday by Solcu Those folded hands of Soli must be the real words on Wednesday- "God please shower your praise and care on me; as I also want "
I am gonna complete it and publish it on my daughter's blog (http://reveda.blogspot.com/) soon and will leave excerpts here.
But i am sure healthy and safe Soli will be in your arms soon
Dani- here is my tribute to your splendid courage and commitment-
http://myheartfeltmusings.blogspot.com/
Excerpts from the post-
“Hope and despair”, “happiness and sadness”, “celebration and fight” et al are not mere words but powerful voice tools lent to human beings by the Almighty God to help them describe their emotions".....
"tools is what creates the distinction in the lives of those very human beings. The list of tools is endless and so is the contradiction ........ moment does nothing but only"
"The post was titled "Wordless Wednesday.. well almost wordless." What made mother use those words to title Amen!
No wonder Dani was found wanting for words on wordless Wednesday..........
I truly believe that dreams are somehow connected to real life. So many times I have dreamed of something only to have it happen later on (days, weeks, months later).
I'm sorry that you are sick and can't go up to see her. I had pneumonia while carter was in the NICU and I had to stay away for almost a week and it was heart wrenching (and the nurses probably wanted to strangle me for calling every couple of hours). I hope you are feeling better soon so you can go see your sweet baby girl!
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