Wednesday, December 31, 2008

Happy New Year to Mommy~

Margie felt bad for me on Christmas she said so guess what I got to do when I got in there tonight!!!
I cannot wait to see what 2009 has in store for us. I hope it just gets better. I could not have asked for a better way to end 2008 than to hold my Christmas Angel!

Tuesday, December 30, 2008

A HUGE thanks!

I have to take some time out today to First off say thank you to everyone for keeping up with my blog and for praying for Soli and our family.

But this big thanks has to go to Mary and her Fabulous crew at the Elk Grove Chick-Fil-a. From the first day that we met them they have been great. I am sure it is a bit unnerving to see a mom and dad come in with 8 little kids running rampid around them. But Mary and her crew have been awesome. They always make us feel welcome and go out of their way to make sure we are taken care of.

Since Soli was born and my kids went into Chick-fil-a and told Mary she was born and very small, Mary has provided us with some meals and more importantly with prayer and friendship. I feel like I am walking into a family members house when we come in the front door. Warmth, welcome and genuine caring radiate from this place. The small town ideals run thru this place despite it not being in a small town. While my Husband was devastated to see his beloved Krispy Kreme go away he does not even miss it now (and knowing how much he loves his KK donuts that says alot!)

So to Mary and her Whole crew THANK YOU!!

Oh and everyone else.... GO EAT AT CHICK-FIL-A in ELK GROVE!

Monday, December 29, 2008

Sunday, December 28, 2008

God does answer prayers...... in his own time

At 3:15 pm today the transport team came to get Soli.

I had spent the past 3 hours just looking at her. I wanted to memorize every hair on her head, every wrinkle on her skin and every movement of her body. I did not want to miss anything about her. I didn't want to think about it but I was not sure as they put her in the transport pod, if I would see her again. It was a real possibility and I had to face it. All I could do was pray that God would answer my prayers and that Soli would fight and stay with us. I knew the surgery had to be done and I asked God to just make sure she came back to us.

I watched her till she was out of sight in the OR and I walked away knowing God would not take her from us. I was sitting in the waiting room preparing for the 3 hour wait they said we would have and at 4:30 the nurse stuck her head in the door and said she was done and they were bringing her back to the NICU. I took my first deep breath of the day.

A few minutes later the elevator doors opened and Soli was wheeled out. She looked so good! Her color was pink and she looked so much at peace. She was not fighting her own body anymore. The Cardio Doc was worried because "she had such a large defect" they were worried she may have too much blood loss. She didn't have any blood loss and they did not need any of the pints of blood they had on standby for her. The look of relief on the faces of the parents of Soli's roommates let me know I was not the only one in there scared for and praying for her. I have much to be thankful for tonight and want to thank all of you for taking time out to pray for her also....

The Ride

I feel a bit light headed and my stomach is turning. Nerves I am sure.

We are approximately T-1 hour to surgery. I feel like the world is spinning around me and there is not much more I can do but hold on and go along for the ride.

It's like that ride at Disney California. You know, the one that you sit in facing out and it shoots you into the air, suspends you at the top for the most amazing view for about 5 seconds and then send you plummeting down to Earth. Then it bounces you back up only to send you plummeting again kind of like a giant Yo-yo.

At first you are not sure you want to ride it but you suck it up and get in line. When you get in line you are nervous but excited at the same time to try this ride. You know you may get nauseous, there is a chance you may even hurl. But you have heard it is all worth it for the view from the top.
You know that your stomach is going to be in your throat when you are done, but you have been told that the 30 second rush that you will experience is worth all the risks and possibilities.

This is, in a way, how I could summarize my Pregnancy with Soli. At first I was not sure that I wanted to go on the ride. I was not sure I was ready. I was enjoying Corbin being my baby and the bond we had. But I came around and got into the line nervous but excited. She was great! No contractions, pre-term labor, nothing. Only one question came about and that was with her heart. I was anxious till her Echo and was told she was fine. NO worries.

On Novemebr 30th I walked onto the ride and sat down. It took a long time to secure the safety harness but we thought we finally got it tight enough. December 6th I unbuckled my harness and walked out of the hospital. I hesitated but on December 11th at 5:50 am, I was forced onto the ride and someone pressed the start button.
I was scared and I wanted off but the ride was already in motion, going upwards and there was no way off. I held on tight during one of the most terrifying accents of my life.

At 11:53 pm I got to the top and for 5 seconds I got to see the most AMAZING View! All 1 pound 9 ounces of her!
For a second I totally forgot all about the bouncing the ride had left in store for me.

Now I am on the yo-yo part of the ride. I pray each day that we are strong enough to survive the ride and we come out OK. I am not sure how much up and down this ride has left in store for us but it is exhausting. The plummeting is the worst part. I pray all day for the ride to be over so they can unstrap me so we can get off and walk away from the ride.
The ride is Hell but I would ride it all over again for the 5 second view at the top and the ability to walk away knowing that we not only survived, we learned, we experienced, we triumphed, we conquered!

I am pretty sure I never want to ride this particular ride again but I know life will have plenty of other rides for us to experience.

Saturday, December 27, 2008

One step Forward & Two steps Back.. Heart Surgery Tomorrow

Well the Dr finally decided that Soli needs the heart surgery to close her PDA. The Left side of her heart is enlarged and her heart is working harder than it should be. Hopefully after this surgery things will turn around. He wants the Cardio Dr to do the surgery tomorrow. If that is the case I will be at the hospital all day. I am Scared but relieved at the same time. I just want her to get better. It is strange but I am almost at peace with the surgery. I know this Is what she needs to get better.
But the good news is She weighed 1 lb 14 ozs tonight!!! She would be 27w 5d gestation today. It is so hard to believe the rollar coaster we have been on for the 2w and 3d Soli has been here. She is So strong and I am so proud of her!
Here is her weekly Chick-a-la pic..
3 Days Old:

1 Week Old

2 Weeks Old

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Friday, December 26, 2008

The Brady's have Stopped!!!!!!!

Some good news today. The Brady's have stopped! She is not working so hard and her little body is getting a chance to recover. We are still waiting for the Cardiologist to find out what we are doing about her heart. She has a head ultrasound today so We are praying that is clear. I have to go get dressed to see my girl.

Thursday, December 25, 2008

A not so good Christmas Morning

Nothing like waking up Christmas Morning to bad news. That is how my Christmas Morning started with a phone call from the NICU telling me that Soli was having trouble breathing and they had to re-intubate her. I was trying so hard to make Christmas Happy for the other kids and now I hate Christmas. This was not the Christmas Miracle I had in mind when I asked God for a Christmas Miracle. I just wanted some good news for Christmas. Despite the bad news about Soli I did manage to fake a smile and take pics of the other kids opening their presents. I have to keep reminding myself that it is Corbin's first Christmas too. I feel so bad for him. I know I am so concerned for how Soli is doing that I have to keep reminding myself that he needs me just as much..

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

pictures I promised

The Angel Daddy bought our Angel
Soli is getting her transfusion so I am unable to actually put her Christmas clothes on her so this is as close as I could get... Merry Christmas from all of us!

Oh yea it is Corbin's first Christmas too so here is his picture too and a few of the other little ones.

Corbin is also happy he is a Breastmilk baby again! He loves the mama milk!

Prayers needed now.

My heart stopped and 5 years fell off my life when I picked up the phone 10 minutes ago and saw the Words "Sutter Hospital" on the Caller ID. I hesitated a moment before answering. The nurse on the other line asked for me and told me Soli's Dr wanted to talk to me. I immediately began to panic. Dr L came on and told me it was time for Soli to get a transfusion. I am scared for her but relieved at the same time. She will feel much better afterwards and maybe this is what she needs to curb the bradys. Great Christmas present right?! Mixed blessing perhaps. He says her murmur sounds bigger but it might be her heart is working harder to pump the little bit of blood she has to her body. They redid the heart ultrasound last night and he is waiting for the report. She may need the PDA heart surgery. So as I type this she is getting the blood she needs thru a transfusion. Please say a prayer that this helps her and that her PDA is not bigger but smaller and she will not need heart surgery.

Teeny Fluff!!

Well most of you may know that I cloth Diaper my kiddos. Well I started my stash for Soli as soon as I found out I was pregnant with her. But of Course since she is sooo small I do not have fluff that tiny nor did I think there was anyone who could make them so tiny. Well a few WAHM have decided to make her some and the first ones in her micro size came yesterday. They are from Nana's Bottoms she is on Hyena Cart and custom made these for Soli.

Are they not the tiniest diapers you have ever seen? There are more on their way and I will also post pictures of them. Today I get to dress Soli in her Christmas outfit and her very First Fluff!! Keep an eye out for pics.....

Monday, December 22, 2008

Alone today

Well today is the first day I have been alone with the kids in over 3 weeks! Well since Nov 29th so I guess in almost a month. I had the sitter come over while I went to a dr appt to check on my incision and to find out what I am still in so much pain. She said the incision looks really good and she opened a 1/4 - 1/2 inch section of my incision to see if there was any fluid stuck inside. There wasn't so she is happy with my progress and thank God gave me some more pain meds and told me this week should be better. I sure hope so. I never realized just how far the NICU was from the parking lot till you walk it half bent over. Now I am home with the kids and we are doing well.

I am keeping up with my pumping and happy to announce that Happy Mr Corbin has only had 1, 4 oz formula bottle in the past 3 days! Yes he is a Happy Boy!! I really wish he would nurse again so it would be much easier but I am happy he is helping me keep up my supply without having to buy a 3rd freezer to keep it all in!

As for Soli she is still having alot of Bradys (her heart slowing down) but they are going to start her feedings again. Hopefully she will tolerate them this time, I mean third times a charm right? She is 1 lb 10 ozs and is finally gaining after dropping to 1 lb 5 ozs after her birth. I bought her the cutest Christmas outfit and I will get to put it on her maybe tomorrow or Wed. I will post pics when I do. I am sad because I have been out of comission for so long that I did not get to take Corbin to see Santa. It is his first Christmas too and I can't physically take him to the mall to get a pic with Santa.

I am doing a bit better, I am ok most of the day. It is when I am in bed at night that Soli not being here with us hits me the most. I am down to my Pre-pregnancy weight of 128 and instead of being happy about that I am sad. I keep trying to look at it as I need to heal and be good as new for when she comes home. We would be 27 weeks today. I was in the shower last night and I counted up all the weeks early my kids were and with Soli's missing weeks I have missed an entire 40 weeks, one whole pregnancy! Needless to say I cannot emotionally do this again so I am certain that Soli is our last baby. I feel sad but know that is what is best. Soli's birth has been the most taxing and the hardest recovery physically for me. Not only that but the incision they had to make to get her out is up and down on my uterus so this does not do well for another pregnancy either.

I have to say that since Soli's birth I have met some of the most generous and caring people. I mean people who don't even know us have helped us out in so many ways. I am so thankful for all of these Angels helping our angel and our family. I mean from helping pay for a sitter, gas, meds to making special cloth diapers for her small baby butt, to bringing my family food. Thank you all for your generosity. Especially during these hard times, I know that none of you have to do anything for us and Like I said I am so thankful for everything, everyone has done.

Sunday, December 21, 2008

Random rambling at a 5 am pumping

I was thinking in the shower the other day that I no longer have anyone to sing to in the shower. There is noone to dance with or discuss the future with. This was never in the plans. Being my last baby I was enjoying my pregnancy and all the discomforts that came along with it. I feel like I got cheated. I never got to announce I was in Double digits since she was born 101 days before her due date. I never got to announce the joy of making it to the 3rd trimester. Hell I was only just starting to feel her move and I was loving it! I was prepairing for bringing another person into our lives but was not yet prepaired. I am still trying to figure out was purpose was supposed to be served by her coming so early. I was heading for one goal. I wanted to have one baby that when born was laid on my chest for me to hold and not wisked away before i was able to blink. If not for the emergency c-section i would have had that with Corbin. There was no chance with Soli. All the what if are constantly running thru my head.

I want to thank anyone reading this for allowing me to put my feelings on here. It helps me to get it out and I appriciate there are a few out there who read them. It is just so hard to talk to others around cause it seems noone understands.

Saturday, December 20, 2008

a prayer request

So far so good. Soli is doing great! She is such a fighter! My prayer request today is that we can find a company to order the breast pump we need from that will bill our insurance. If not, that we can figure out how to come up with the $1600 we need to buy it ourselves. It is a hospital pump we need for long term use.

I was thinking of maybe getting those bracelets with her name date and weight and selling them to raise the money for her pump. What do you guys think? Ok well I am holding my angel and typing on the iPhone sucks so I will update you all later.

The Countdown's begun!

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Friday, December 19, 2008


I have been trying to keep busy trying to avoid the inevitable. But tonight I had some down time and it hit. I feel so betrayed. My body betrayed me. And in turn I have failed my baby. It was my job to protect her and to keep her safe and for reasons I am not clear of, my body betrayed me and I then failed to do my part for my baby. I should have stayed in the hospital and not moved for anything. Now I can do nothing but watch her and pray she is not hurting. I have to ask to touch or comfort my baby instead of rubbing my tummy when she is restless. It does not help that I am in so much pain from the c-section either. I do not remember being in so much pain with any of the others. Well I am wiped out so I am off to bed.

Wednesday, December 17, 2008

A little peak at our angel and prayers for Xavier

I see God's Miracles everyday lately. I am going to ask you all to please pray for my old hospital roommate Selena. She just turned 17 and her water broke with her baby at the begining of september. She has been in the hospital on bedrest trying to make it as long as she can for her little boy. Xavier was born last night at 28 weeks. He was deprived of oxygen for a long time after he was born and they FINALLY got him breathing after working on him for over 3 HOURS! they tell her they do not know to what extend his brain will be damaged due to the lack of oxygen but Selena has strong faith and keeps telling everyone that he is going to be fine and he is going to do well. She is amazing. I do not know many adults who could go thru what she has let alone any teenager faced with an unplanned pregnancy. Please pray for them.

Monday, December 15, 2008

Support Team Soli and the March of Dimes!

Soli and her family will be out April 25 2009 walking for The March of Dimes, Come join our team!

Sunday, December 14, 2008

Look Ma!!! 3 Days Old!

Imagine my suprise today to find out Soli was being extubated. She was such a trooper and Mommy Patiently waited for the first little cry that was sure to accompany the process. The procedure we off without a hitch! And to Mommy's slight disappointment, without a cry. But after the CPAP was put on she let out a little cry just to please her Mommy! She is doing great and is still 1 lb 9 ozs. She is getting stronger everytime I see her. I even got to hold her for the first time today while the nurse changed her bed. I also got her give Soli her first kiss! Soli did not cry but Mommy Did!

Katie came to see me today and before she left at 11:30 pm she went in to check on Soli like she does every night. She came back to my room and said that she did not realize Soli had so much hair. Well as you can see by the picture she has to wear a hat with the CPAP. I was puzzled how Katie could see her hair and then Katie showed me a pic she took:

She is on Nasal Cannula. She is breathing on her own! She is 26 weeks Gestation today. I see God's Amazing Power, Love and Grace everytime I look at her. Thank you everyone for your prayers they are working as you can see!

Saturday, December 13, 2008

She is Here and She's a Fighter!

Solange Lea came into the world on 12/11/08 at 11:53pm. She is a whole 1 lb and 9.3 ozs and is 12.5" long. So far she is stable and strong! She is on a vent but that is to be expected. PLEASE continue to pray for her strength and health. It is going to be a long next few months but I know it will all be worth it. She is worth it. She is so perfect and so tiny. Her eyes are still fused shut but should open in a few days. Her feet are the size of the top of my thumb and my fingertip is too big for her hand to grasp.

I was awaken Friday morning at 5:50 am when my water broke. After a Lights and sirens Ambulance ride to the hospital I was given IV antibiotics and the waiting began. At 10 pm the nurses started to prep me for c-section because she was having some variable heart decels and my temp was going up and was 100.4, just incase. 5 mins later they hit, every 2-3 minutes I was having killer contractions.
At 11pm I was wheeled into the OR as our little angel decided her position of choice was transverse or across my belly with her head on my right and her butt down and feet on my left. The docs and I decided on a spinal and after 2 spinals we were finally ready to go. Nurses were worried because as I was getting the spinal they could not find her heartbeat and all I could think is that we were too late and we lost her. they laid me down and still could not locate her heartbeat. They ran in a Ultrasound machine so they could visualize her Heartbeat, I cried as they were looking for her and asked them in a panic if they could see her Heartbeat as I could not see the screen. They assured me she was good. All I could do was pray for God to keep his hand on her and to keep her safe. You have to understand that for the past week or 2 I would wake up EVERY night with Nightmares that she died, so when they showed her to me as they passed to take her out to work on her, I cried with relief that she survived her delivery.
Now she is over 24 hours old and she is up to 1.11. I trust that God is going to keep his hand on her and protect her since she is no longer safe in my tummy.

Tuesday, December 9, 2008

it was asked...

why someone would want to have an early baby so here is my answer..
A week or 2 I understand but having to leave 4 of my babies behind as I went home is devistating and it does not get easier just because I expect an early baby. I have been having nightmares about losing Soli every night for the past week and all I can do is pray that she is strong enough to make it when she does come. NOTHING in the world can prepair you for seeing your baby sustained by machines and the feelings of guilt you carry for not being able to protect them and carry them like you are supposed to. I know I am doing everything in my power to keep her safe but I know it is not my choice when she comes. All I can do is pray that she has the strength and the defiant will that the rest of her siblings seem to have. I do have my moments of weakness when I wish she would just come already so we can take care of her and not be living in such a constant of what ifs. Then I remember my other babies hooked up to all the machines and the feeling of helplessness when I have to ask permission to touch or comfort my own child. and I feel guilty for feeling so selfish so here I sit waiting for her and God's will.

Sunday, December 7, 2008

still baking...

Well Soli's bag is still thru my cervix and she is now head down and engaged. My cervix is a 2-3 and about 80-90% effaced. It is literally only 1mm (paper thin). It is no longer IF she will come but just a matter of WHEN. She has not been very active today but I have not be having contractions so I am not sure what she is doing but we are almost 25 weeks. Almost a full week more than we though she would last so far. Everyday is a blessing. I am still on strict bedrest and I do not even what to know how much weight I have gained in the past week! I will try to let you know more when I know more..

Thursday, December 4, 2008

Still here

Well so far so good. Soli is staying put and I have never in my life laid around so much. Tom was my life saver today and brought me McDonald's. Have I mentioned how much I love him? We have an Ultrasound scheduled for tomorrow morning and we will know more then. I have learned that online shopping sucks! There is no variety online and shipping sucks. There is also not the same thrill of finding that great deal that you get when you come across something in the store.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Here I sit

Well here I sit on Hospital Bedrest. I am 2 cm dialated and Soli's water bag has come all the way thru and is sticking out of my Cervix. The dr's goal and now ours is to get Soli to as close as we can to 28 weeks. It is 4 more weeks. As of last night she is 1 lb 8 ozs. It is hard. I know this is the best place for me to be for Soli but I cannot help to feel guilty because I have other kids at home that also need me just as much. I am torn but I do know that Tom is doing a great job at home with the kids. I cannot imagine a better father for my children or a better husband. Next ultrasound is on Friday and then the dr will assess from there. So for now we are in a wait and hold pattern..

Sunday, November 30, 2008

Please pray for Soli

Hi everyone. I am currently in the hospital at 2 cm and 50% effaced and praying that Soli aka:10 stays in. I need some prayers that she stays in and if she does decide to come that they are able to get her to the NICU and stablize her. I have never been this scared for one of my babies before. I have never been this dialated this early before.
My FFN came back positive and they have given me my first betamethazone shot (steriods to mature her lungs). I am so scared for her she is way too early and all I can think of is that we are going to lose her.
I know that ultimately we are not the ones in charge, God is but if you have been following along my blog you will know that I have been having trouble lately trusting him. Perhapse this is a test of my Faith. I am trying so hard to put my faith in him and his his Grace and Mercy.
I am at Sutter and I know this is the best hospital I can be at if Soli does decide to come. She will be 24 weeks tomorrow and that is considered "viable". Now I have to Trust that this is in God's hands and that he has his hand on her keeping her safe..

Wednesday, November 12, 2008

Here she is 21 weeks and 3 days old...

We are going to see our Angel again..

I have a 3-d Ultrasound scheduled for tonight. I am soo excited to see what her beautiful little face looks like. This will also be the first time that her daddy will "see" her other than the u/s picture. He is usually watching the little munchkins at the park when I have my other ones. My Aunt (whom Solange's middle name comes from) is coming over to watch the others while we go.

The chore of the day chart is working quite well I must say and while not clean yet, my house is getting there. You should have seen their faces light up when they got their allowance for the week. I never knew $1 could make a 4 year old's face light up so much.

The wonderful ladies at my MOMS group are giving me a baby shower Sat and I am sooo excited. Then sunday is Terra's shower. Tom is leaving on Sat for Camp Roberts and I am not sure when he will be back. They want him there till the 1st or so. Happy Thanksgiving to me huh? Oh well. Well hopefully tomorrow I will have a cute little face to post on here of our new angel... Till then...

Friday, November 7, 2008


The greatest word ever!! Her heart is Perfect!! I FINALLY feel like maybe things are starting to look up. Or trying to get better. I do know that this "scare" about her heart has made me start to connect with her. I think it has made Tom start to connect with her a little too. For that I am grateful. Everything about her was perfect today and she weighs in at a whopping 13oz! I have been put on a Semi-Bedrest and have to go back in in 3 weeks for another exam..

I have started a Chore of the day chart where one of the big kids gets paired with a little one and they complete a chore. They are to teach them to do it right without yelling and tattling. It has been working great so far and taking some of the pressure off me. I am starting to let go of some of the things I think are holding me down. I have started organizing things and I have done 10's room and I am starting to feel better. I am working on getting the garbage out and the extra clutter and I think that will help alot.

Well tomorrow is another day I my goal is to go to the dump... Sounds like fun huh?! Well with Tom working for the next 2 weekends for sure I have time to get things organized...

Wednesday, November 5, 2008

Don't put on socks in the dark...

Yep that is the lesson I learned today. Don't put your socks on in the dark unless they are already matched up because no matter how they "match" in the dawn's early light, it is never the same when you hit the light of day. I noticed my socks were different shades of white today while I was at the Dr's office but figured they were under my pants so who would see them but me.. WRONG. Dr decided I needed a full exam (YIPPEE!!) and of course stupid me kept my socks on and it did not dawn on me that I was still wearing said unmatched socks till my feet were up in the Dr's face. Oh yea so here I am with a 4 and 3 year old running around in circles, Corbin (who I might add has found his voice and loves to hear it) squealing away in the stroller obviously not content with the wait at the office and My stupid unmatched socks! Great first impression huh. OK note to self: In the future pick out your socks in the evening when the lights are on!

Wish me luck

Well Lovely Tricare has decided I need a new dr so the hunt has been on for an in-network provider. Is it just me of is tricare's service getting more and more like welfare. I walked into an office last week and I honestly think they had to struggle to speak English to me. Also if I cannot pronounce my Dr's name they may be a great Dr but they will not be MY Dr. I like to hold conversations with my Dr and if I cannot understand them then they do me no good. So today I have another appt with a new doctor. I really hope I like her because this is really wearing me out. I am tired of being treated like a welfare patient. I have insurance and I do not like being disrespected or made to fell like I have no clue what I am talking about.

My "big" ultrasound is Friday and that is when we will know more about 10's heart since they are also doing an echo. Well I have to take a shower and get everyone dressed...

Tuesday, November 4, 2008

We are doomed

OK POLITICAL OPINION GOING ON HERE. So if you are an Obama supporter you may want to stop here.
I voted for the very first and Now the Very last time in my life. The electoral college is a joke. Elections should be won on popular vote so that EVERY SINGLE VOTE counts. We are all screwed now so in 4 years when we have been screwed so hard that we are barely the USA anymore then I want to be able to come back and say I told you so. I hope to God that I am proven wrong but I highly doubt it. But I will say now that I will NEVER vote in an election again.
I asked a friend how she felt and she said:
we know that god is soverign and he has a plan
ME:to doom us?, I mean he has wiped out everyone before
Her: Everyone except noah
Me: who gets to be noah?
I wanna be Noah so should I start building now??

I think when Obama takes over we will stop working I mean he is going to take more $ from those that make more to give to those who don't make as much and I wants that money. Besides I don't want to work hard to earn more to have it taken. So I will work less and still get some. That is his plan right?!

Saturday, November 1, 2008

A rather "easy" day

Well today was a rather easy day. I was down 3 kids. Tom had to work so the rest of the kids and I went to the thrift store and we found some clothes for 10 and a crib for her for $14 awesome! Then we went to the Commissary. Cheryl carried Corbin in the Beco and pushed a cart and I pushed Caden in the stroller/cart. $500 in groceries later we headed home. Got some outback steakhouse for dinner and now we are relaxing. I have been gone from the house for nearly 10 hours! I am so glad we get to set our clocks back and get an extra hour of sleep now does anyone know how to convince the kids that THEY need the extra hour to sleep too??

Friday, October 31, 2008

Thursday, October 30, 2008

Day 30 of 31 for 21 - Am I the only adult?

I swear sometime I think I am the only adult in this house! Every night we turn the tv off at 8:30 so the kids have to read for their 30 mins which is part of their homework. For the past week I have been making the tv go off at 8 because Allyson cannot seem to get with the program and has not been doing her reading or her reading log. Well tonight Tom decided to watch Rocky Horror Picture Show on tv. Well 1) that show is not appropriate for all the kids to watch and 2) he decided it was more important to watch that then to make sure the kids had their reading time. I swear sometime he is worse than the kids! So once again the teacher will call me to let me know how I fucked up by not making sure Allyson did her work because ONCE again Allyson did not do her homework this week. As though I really have control over that. I make her sit and she does NOTHING. I am NOT going to do her homework for her. I do not even know why I try. If she wants to fail then by all means fail but in the end it will not be my fault! I refuse to allow her failure and lack of trying to be my failure cause you know when it comes down to it the other 3 kids with homework are A students so if she lacks the effort then it is on her because I must be doing something right if MY 3 students are all A students don't you think?

Back to being the only adult, since when is Family Guy and American Dad ect acceptable shows for 5-10 year olds to watch?? UUUGGGHHHH! I wanna scream!

Wednesday, October 29, 2008

Day 29 of 31 for 21 - What a day..

Well I spent the day finding a new dr. I have an appt tomorrow with him. I hope i like him and the good news is that he delivers all his patients. A rare thing these days. While trying to clean up Caden came running down the hall and slipped onto his back in a puddle of water. I had ro search to find the source of the 1/2" pool of water flooding my hallway. After wading thru the water I discovered it was my washing machine so now when Tom gets home we have to pull out the washer and dryer and figure out what on the washer broke. On the other hand 7 beach towwels later my hall floor is as clean as the day we moved in! Having the washer flood is one way to get your hall cleaned but I do not suggest it. Now I have to call the insurance as I am sure the flood was not good on the pergo!

Ok now for the flashback portion of our blog, I found these pics while cleaning the other night..
Me and My cousin Casey

ME when I was a baby and one of me and my mom.

Tuesday, October 28, 2008

Day 28 of 31 for 21 - I must have 15 different diseases!

WARNING do not research what ifs on the Internet. I have found out that there is such a thing as too much information! According to the Internet I have any Number of things wrong with me! LOL. If you are tired you may have depression, or Leukemia or some other god awful disease! You ever watched those commercials that start off like, Are you Tired? Do you have a headache? Do your feet hurt? They you too may have (insert disease here). Ask your Dr if you have ever felt nauseated, sleep deprived or restless, you may be suffering from (insert other disease here.) The Internet I think has too much information at times. I went looking up Fetal arrhythmia. Well that was NOT a good thing since it basically took me from nothing wrong, goes away to certian death of neonate. Ok so I closed the computer and I think I will just wait to see what the dr says. Oh speaking of drs my U/s and Echo of 10's heart has been changed from the 10th to the 7th.. As for now I think I will stop looking up the what ifs and be happy she is ok right now..
Ok so what do any of you think of the names, Solange?(means Angel of the sun) or Lyric?

Monday, October 27, 2008

Day 27 or 31 for 21 - Nighttime fun

Ok now I KNOW that I am married to a dork and he is rubbing off on my kid..

Yes that is a Star Wars Light saber with a fly swatter rubberbanded to the end of it!